CSI: Miami Completed!

I finally finished playing CSI: Miami! The last case was really good and tied the previous four cases together. I will be writing a review for the game which you will soon be able to view at my website. You will also find a variety of other reviews that I have done for restaurants, food products, and other games. There isn't much there at the moment, but as I finish playing more games etc, I will add more reviews.

Fashion Parade

Tonight I went to the club I told you about yesterday. The night consisted of waiting for the 'fashionably late' people to arrive and then the fashion parade itself. I have to say, Steve did a good job with organising it. It was really fluent and the I liked a fair majority of the clothes. Though I have to say, some of the models he had there were freaky looking and not too appealing.

I didn't bother to stay after the parade because the people there were a bit older than me, were very impolite when it came to pushing their way through the crowd, and like most clubs, had there were heaps of people smoking away happily not caring whether anyone else could breathe or those who didn't want their clothes stinking of smoke. As soon as I got 'home' (technically my boyfriends home) I had a shower and got that horrible smell of club out of me. Unfortunately my clothes still stink and will have to be washed. *Sigh*.

Oh yeah. I wore the top I bought yesterday. It wasn't anything like I planned to buy, instead I got a black and white top which was more me anyway. I looked like a punk. Hehe.

A Very Very Small Fortune

University this morning consisted of a two-hour Financial Accounting lecture. Riveting. I bought my Criminal Law book and am sorry to say that it is only just smaller than my Constitutionalism book; which is huge. So much reading to do so little enthusiasm and time. And on top of that I have a shit load of reading to do in my other subjects as well. On the bright side, I was able to get the online second-hand book website to accept my 'post' (after a lot of trouble and failed attempts). So someone called today in regards to the book I had posted that was for sale. Yay, $65 in the kitty. Hardly. I had to borrow money to pay for this semester's books and will be using the majority of my newly found fortune (:P) to pay back the loan. Tis not fair you know. This year I'm getting barely any money from Centrelink hardly enough to cover rent, let alone anything else. Fortunately I got a scholarship though. But a substantial portion of that money is just going to my mother to pay her back for my car and my boyfriend who I loaned money from for my university books.

And I'll tell you what is really annoying. My scholarship money I am suppose to receive at the start of the semester. But the government and university's definition of this is the start of September. I mean, seriously. How do they expect us to have the financial resources to pay for our textbooks and other fees. The reason why we get the scholarship is because we don't have strong financial resources, yet they make us suffer for so long. I suppose it is because they have to wait to see if we drop out of university or something like that. But still. By know you are probably pitying me and my lack of money. You should. :) It's all cool though, (although I would like more money and I only have enough to cover basic necessities), because with my job I am getting a bit extra cash without jeopardising my studies. So after my scholarship cheque comes I should have my debts greatly decreased, and enough money to buy some clothes. And possibly a digital camera. Okay, I won't get carried away. I should save my money.

So, I'm planning to go shopping tonight and buy a top to wear to a club on Saturday night (Notice the contradiction with what I said about saving... :D). But I really need a top to wear when I go out; as rare an occasion that may be. So I'm going to the club tomorrow night because my boyfriend's sister's boyfriend (you catch that?) is having a fashion parade showing the latest clothes he has for sale in his shop. I'm really looking forward to it. It will be something to do and I can see what I want to buy at a discounted rate ;) Anyway, I'll write about the details and success of the night tomorrow or Sunday.

Inconsiderate People (Who Are Cowards)

I don't know about the majority of you out there, but what really annoys me are inconsiderate people. My housemate, after telling him to clean up his stuff because we had someone coming to have a look at a spare room, failed to do so; failed to clean at all. Nearly everything in this house I own and among the numerous things that he uses is my table. But low and behold, I went to clean up his shit and there were two huge scratches on my table that he had conveniently neglected to tell me about. That seriously pisses me off. I let other people use my stuff and they go and wreck it on me and don't even have the guts to tell me unless I confront them about it. As was the case today. Inconsiderate people like that should not be tolerated and I would be within my rights to disallow him from using my shit again. However, due to my kind nature, as you have no doubt realised in previous posts :P, I feel that that course of action may be a little too extreme.

Petrol Prices

On my way to work this morning I was contemplating refilling my car with petrol. Yesterday the price of fuel was at 108.9 cents but today it had jumped 10 cents to 118.9. Ever since a radio announcement a month or so ago that stated that the price of fuel was expected to increase in the future, the price has indeed stayed at or above the 108.9 mark. I reckon that all the petrol station owners heard about this and hiked their prices up earlier. If the radio announcement hadn't have come on, prices would still be around 105.9. That's what I think anyway.

I must say, I have progressed significantly in my expedition to finish CSI: Miami, not that I have finished it but have indeed gotten a lot further. And I will be writing a review for it when I have finished. But at the moment I have been taking screenshots of the game so that I can add them to the review.

Also, last night I was attempting to enrol in my tutorial for Introduction to Quantitative Analysis over the internet, but it said all the allocations had been filled. I mean, seriously, the whole point of this subject revolves around maths and the stupid (I use this term loosely; they are probably smart in the sense that they know the subject material) lecturers can't even count how many positions they will need to allow all students to participate in a tutorial. It is seriously ridiculous and not very encouraging to think that the lecturers have difficulty counting and using the information about the number of students in a logical way. They should be utterly embarrassed. And even though the following isn't the point, I wasn't even late in enrolling for a tutorial, I tried to enrol eight hours after it came online.

Damn Those Timetable Clashes

Today consisted of a two hour criminal law lecture which was rather interesting. The bad thing is that at the same time I am suppose to have a one hour Quant lecture. I have once again got clashing subjects, just as I did last year. Since I really like criminal law I don't want to miss that, but at the same time I have trouble with the mathematics in Quant and really need to go to that lecture. It's not a good situation to be in.

Back to Uni

I started back at school today, only lectures this week though. First there was Introduction to Quantitative Analysis for one hour, then a four hour break within which I slept, and finally a two lecture for Constitutionalism where we learnt about Magna Carta. I bought a $75 book for Quant today leaving my cash on hand at $0. Now unfortunately I must work more days this week to bring the total back up so I can buy my Criminal Law book.

I have to say, I am a little disappointed...again. I told my boyfriend whilst at his house that I wanted to go home and get my things, go get some Bailey's which he wanted, and come back to his place to stay the night. But what do I get five minutes later, "I think I feel like watching Minority Report tonight". A movie which he is going to watch with someone else. So after telling him what I wanted to do and him not disagreeing to it, he went told me he was going out to watch a movie with one of his friends. I'm like fine. But him seeing that I am angry with him is like "I don't have to go. I won't go. You can stay over." Like fuck I'm going to stay now after being rejected like that. It's obvious he didn't want to spend more time with me, what with him having better things to do. So yeah, I am pissed off with my boyfriend at the moment.

Barbeque

Today after taking my friend to Epping so she could buy an exercise bike I went to my boyfriend's house again because we were to go to one of his friend's house for a birthday barbeque. We got there about one hour late but were among the first there. I have to say, it seems rather cruel for a person to say to another that they will show up at something and then not turn up, like many other people did. It's really not very fair. Someone spending so much time and money preparing something that they hope to be an enjoyable event, only to find out that half the people aren't going to turn up. Anyway, the barbeque was good. We left early to go back to my boyfriend's house to 'get' a cd for one of the guys that were at the party.

We did that and when locking the front door behind as, my boyfriend realised he had left the keys inside. So there we were standing outside in the cold waiting ages for his sister to come home and let us back in the house. By the time we got back to the barbeque the cake had already been cut, but because so many people failed to turn up there was still plenty left. It was delicious. So here I am now. Back in my snuggly bed and dreading tomorrow; the first day of semester two at university. Not so much because I am nervous or anything like that, but rather that I am too lazy to get up and go.

Books of Unnecessary Length

So, I am back at work today. It is currently 12:15 and I have already played all that I can of CSI: Miami, not because I am stuck but because I forgot to bring the second CD to work. Damn those three CD games. I then tried my hand at reading some Constitutional Law & Theory. The book is 1376 pages long. I am suppose to read pages 1-7 and then 67-89 but I honestly can't bring myself to skip all those pages in between. It's very frustrating. I'm like, "But they may contain interesting information and I will learn something else", but all I get when I read them is "What the fuck?".

Well it's now 2pm and I have tried my hand at playing Sam & Max, though not too successfully. It's really quite sad, I don't even know what I have to do in the game, all I know is that there are two shifty looking guys that I probably have to follow. I really don't know.

I managed to get off work at 4pm since it was so slow. Since then I have guiltily had four slices of pizza whilst watching The Longest Yard with my boyfriend. It is now only 7:30pm and I am so tired. I've worked the last three days in a row and had to get up earlier than usual, and tomorrow I was suppose to have nothing on in the morning that would allow me to sleep in but alas, I have to drive my friend to Epping. I don't mind that too much, it's good to help out, but I just really want to sleep in. Sigh. That is life.

I realise that in my previous diary entry I get angrier and angrier as it progresses. It may seem that I didn't proof read what was written, but that is not true. I left it how it was because I feel it gives the reader a clearer idea about how I think and why I get angry at times. I might not have a very logical reason behind my anger or have actual evidence supporting anything I say, but it is important that you were able to get a clear idea as to how I function and why I have said those things in the past.

In addition to this I would like to add that my hatred towards that person has significantly subsided for I realise that it was mostly unwarranted, probably entirely unwarranted. I intend to make a decent effort to control my emotions in that regard in the future and to think about the situation before acting upon it; though I don't know if you could call this an improvement since it is my thought process that usually attributes to the escalation of my hate. Anyway, I am sorry that my insecurities led to me making such a cruel statement which then led to this person feeling miserable for a fairly long time afterwards.

A Screwed Up Situation

Last night my boyfriend and I went out for dinner to Crown Pizza. I ordered a Crown chicken fillet which was a chicken fillet coated in a lemon-oil sauce, served with salad and chips. It was a very nice meal although somewhat oily. The chips were just like what you would get at McDonalds. I think I will add a review for Crown Pizza.

Today I am at work. I work as a receptionist and it is rarely busy. Basically all I do is answer the phone, and today only six or so people have called so far. You could call this a slow day. But the good thing about this job, even though it doesn't pay very much, is that I can do whatever I like when I am not on the phone. I usually bring my laptop in to work or read. So far today I have played CSI: Miami, watched CSI, and significantly altered and updated my website as you may have noticed. Tonight I hope to go to the gym because I got a free two week pass out of a magazine, so I need to make the most of it. Not to mention the fact that I want to get fitter and lose a bit of weight, but hey, doesn't everyone.

I am suppose to be working tomorrow as well and am hoping that if I do work I will get off early because my boyfriend's mate is having a party in the Wodonga area that I wouldn't mind going to. So you might say I am kind of regretting offering to work every Saturday since that day is the one when most people plan to go out or have a party. It's not all bad though, by the end of next week I should know my timetable for university and will be able to alter my shifts at work. Yay. But I'll probably end up keeping Saturday since most other days I would be at university and I need the money to buy school books. Another thing, who prices school books at $130? That is what one of my criminal law books is going to cost me so I really do need to get as much work as I can. Damn those expensive books that are a necessity.

I have felt somewhat reluctant to include in my online diary any very emotional entries for fear of what people may think about my apparently unstable mental state. However, due to recent events I feel that it is important to express my view about a certain situation.

Over the past month I have been acting somewhat angrily towards my boyfriend and have failed to act in a fair manner for I felt that I was being plotted against. I've done some things recently that most people would not be proud to do and would be disgusted at, the things I have said to one particular person was very cruel, but at the time I really thought that they deserved it. Although my hatred towards this particular person has resided, I feel that I owe them an apology. I still do not particularly like this person but have treated them very unfairly when all that they appear to want is the friendship of my boyfriend and nothing else, though I am still not too sure about this matter, and my feelings for this person are very volatile to the actions they take, or at least what I perceive them to be doing.

And what I say next may sound a tad cruel, but here goes. Probably the main reason why I am sorry for what I did is because my boyfriend, though he made a mistake, has been trying to make it up to me by doing most things I ask, but I basically just threw it back in his face. And for this I am greatly sorry. This situation has nearly ruined our relationship and a recent encounter has helped me to see reason. I am sorry for what I wrote, not because at the time of the message in my mind I thought the person deserved it, but because now I have jeopardised my relationship with my boyfriend, and his relationship with one of his friends, however much I might dislike that friendship. It makes you think you know, when you are confronted in what appears a menacing way by your boyfriend to discuss something that I really don't believe was my fault. I mean, sure I was the one that sent that message, but before anything "happened" last year, I was nonchalant about him seeing the person. After the incident I have basically been paranoid, going over situations in my head that I thought they would be doing together, not trusting my boyfriend and thinking that all he will be doing is going to see the person and bonding together, enjoying each other's company and him not caring how it would affect me.

That is basically why my hatred towards this person escalated. I still feel this way on occasion, but since my boyfriend confronted me the other day, things have changed a bit. I know that he does not have feelings for her in that way, and I know that he really loves me, but it still doesn't change the fact that he is spending what I consider too much time with her. Although this time may not always be in the actual company of the person, they talk nearly every night on the internet or the person rings him or sms's him with stupid and unnecessary comments. And that pisses me off. Not to mention the fact that this person keeps buying him presents and making him lunch at school. Like she thinks that I'm such a bad girlfriend because I don't make him his bloody sandwiches everyday, I mean, it's the bloody 21st century, we don't do that anymore, if they are hungry they will feed themselves (well that's how many Australian women would perceive it, and no, not just the female activists among us).

So I may have elaborated about this person buying him presents all the time, but she has bought him jeans, tops, dvd's, candy, taken him out for dinner, so what the hell am I suppose to think! Her buttering him up like that fucking drives me mad. And this recent trip of his to Singapore with her. That was too much for me. I told him my feelings about it and he didn't care in the slightest or at least didn't appear to care. I mean, what would his girlfriend think about him going to Singapore with a girl who used to have a thing for him. It's just great, another little bonding session for them, that's what it was. Her taking photos of everything and probably putting a photo of my boyfriend on her bedside table so she can look at her "best friend" every night before she goes to sleep. That's what it seems anyway. And that she even considers him to be her best friend! That is very aggravating to say the least. I mean, she has other friends, but noooo, who spends the most time with her and makes her the happiest, it has to be my boyfriend. And although I know my boyfriend loves me it is still infuriating to think of them "enjoying each other's company".

That is why I have been acting the way I have lately. I was pissed off with the whole situation, the disregard for my feelings, and their bloody (I was going to say their fucking bonding session but I thought you would get the wrong idea) bonding session.

So there you have it, for you out there that don't know the situation, the above entry should be erased from your memory. Forgive my use of what may be unnecessary French words but I felt they were necessary to truly express what I was thinking and feeling (No stab at the French intended).

QLD

I got back from Queensland on the 14th of July. The weather was so much nicer up there than in Melbourne. I managed to go to the beach a total of two times, rather disappointing, and the time I went there to sun bake the sun went behind the clouds as soon as I got there. I finally went to Seaworld. I've been to Queensland on a number of occasions, and have been to all the other theme parks, so it was Seaworld this time. I have to say, I was amazed at how high the dolphins could actually jump, and the seal show was so cute. Unfortunately I didn't buy any clothes except for some track pants at Pacific Fair. That shopping center is huge.

Exams are Over and I'm off to QLD

I finally got my car fixed. The top of the radiator has been split for a while now and I was starting to get rather concerned when every time I drove my car, smoke or steam was coming from the bonnet. But thankfully it is now fixed and I have one less thing to worry about.

I've been on holidays from university for about 6 days now. I was extremely worried about my last exam, Microeconomic Theory, because for one; I really dislike the subject, and two; I did not do all the work during the semester and as such was rather behind. But I studied my arse off for the few days before the exam and learnt all the stuff I needed to know. When I got into the exam room and looked at the paper, I was quite relieved. The structure was such that we were given eight questions, five of which we had to answer, and one which was a make up your own question. So I think I did rather well.

I'm going to Queensland on Wednesday and plan to get a tan at the beach and go shopping. I'm not to sure how the weather will be because I've heard there's been floods and the like up that area, but either way, there is always solariums.